Prayers please

No more voice box. Just trying to heal now. This is so hard. Thank y’all for everything

Thanks everyone. I'm just taking it one day at a time.

Sorry for not updating my condition and the outcome of the surgery in so long.

Unfortunately, they have to perform a full larenygectomy. They had to rebuild my throat using skin from my wrists. In doing so, they had to remove my voice-box, so now I can no longer speak or even smell.

It hasn't been easy. My social life has basically vanished. I went from going to the night club every weekend to not leaving the house for weeks at a time. I was scared that my dogs would act different, but thankfully the still love me.

My friends and family had a little surprise homecoming for me, which was cool. It's crazy how one of the best moments in your life can come at the worst time of your life. But they made that happen.

It's now been 121 days since I have had anything to eat or drink and I have at least 200 more days to go. I've lost 70 pounds in those 100 days (but I have been exercising too). It's not the first time that I've gone over 100 days without eating or drinking, so that experience has made it easier.

I'm not nearly as thirsty as I was the first 30 days. That was tough. Especially in the hospital. When I got home, I tried sneaking a bottle of water, but then I quickly realized it was pointless as it immediately came out of the hole in my neck and made me choke if I didn't take super-baby sips. Now, I really only get thirsty when I wake up in the morning. But I just swoosh some water around in my mouth and put a bottle of water in my feeding tube and I'm okay.

Food has been the opposite. I wasn't hungry at all for the first 30 days. Now I get hungry all the time, and the nutrition shakes that I gotta put in my feeding tube don't help much at all. The damn food commercials make it worse, but luckily I don't watch TV with commercials unless it's football season.

It's not gonna be easy to get back to eating again because right now my throat is closed so tight that I can barely swallow air, and when I do, it makes a little farting noise because the air can barely make it through. I can't even swallow my saliva, so I have to carry a spit cup with me wherever I go. I did recently discover hard candy though! I can't swallow it but at least I get to taste it!

The support that I've received from you guys and the messages I receive in my inbox from mainly people I've never spoken with that tell me that my battle has inspired them and helped them, is such a big help to me. I know the homecoming y'all had for me was special. It's crazy that I can have one of the best moments of my life during one of the worst times in my life. But y'all made that happen! Thank you friends. I love you all forever! Especially the females!